Jennifer Hudson has finally opened up about the death of her family (her mother, brother and nephew). I never thought Jennifer would talk about what happened after herÂ familyÂ died, but she did with Behind the Music.
According to E!,
“It was surreal,” she said on VH1’s Behind the Music: Jennifer Hudson, which premiered Monday night. “It was like I was outside of myself.”
Darnell and Jason were found shot to death inside their Chicago home on October 24, 2008. After a frantic search, the body of 7-year-old Julian was found in an abandoned SUV. Police later arrested William Balfour, the estranged husband of Hudson’s sister, Julia, for the killings.
After receiving the gruesome news, the singer-actress went into seclusion to mourn the loss of her loved ones privately away from the prying eyes of the paparazzi.
“For almost two weeks straight…[I was] inside one room with just family and friends coming in and out…because of course the press was everywhere,” said Hudson. “And it was like, ‘Where’s Jennifer?’ I was pretty much secluded from everything that was going on. I didn’t watch any TV, I didn’t even want to know what was going on because I had more than enough to deal with.”
“I prayed when I got up in the morning and prayed before I laid down at night. If I didn’t, I’d wake up depressed. The day didn’t go right,” the Oscar winner recalled.
“I remember being asked to do a film around that same time and I was like, I have to get adjusted to who I am now. So I can’t be another character if I don’t know who I am,” said an emotional Hudson, doing her best to hold back the tears.