This is probably the hardest thing Iâ€™ve ever had to write. I see all of the support and I am so thankful for my fans, friends and family who are helping me through this difficult time.
I am trying not to read all the different media reports but itâ€™s hard not to see all the negative ones. First and foremost, I married for love. I canâ€™t believe I even have to defend this. I would not have spent so much time on something just for a TV show! I share so much of my life on a reality show, that contemplating whether to even film my wedding was a tough decision to make, and maybe it turned out to not be the smartest decision. But itâ€™s who I am! We filmed Kourtney giving birth, Khloe getting married, break ups, make ups, our best moments and our worst moments. These were all real moments. Thatâ€™s what makes us who we are. We share, we give, we love and we are open!
Everyone that knows me knows that Iâ€™m a hopeless romantic! I love with all of my heart and soul. I want a family and babies and a real life so badly that maybe I rushed in to something too soon. I believed in love and the dream of what I wanted so badly. I felt like I was on a fast roller coaster and couldnâ€™t get off when now I know I probably should have. I got caught up with the hoopla and the filming of the TV show that when I probably should have ended my relationship, I didnâ€™t know how to and didnâ€™t want to disappoint a lot of people.
Iâ€™m being honest here and I hope you respect my courage because this isnâ€™t easy to go through. But I do know that I have to follow my heart. I never had the intention of hurting anybody and I accept full responsibility for my actions and decisions, and for taking everyone on this journey with me. It just didnâ€™t turn out to be the fairy tale I had so badly hoped for.
There are also reports that I made millions of dollars off of the wedding. These reports are simply not true and it makes me so sad to have to even clarify this. Iâ€™m so grateful to everyone who took the time to come to my wedding and Iâ€™ll be donating the money for all the gifts to the Dream Foundation.
Iâ€™m sorry if I have hurt anyone, but my dad always told me to follow my heart and I believe now that I really am.